From Force-Feeding to Eating Difficulties

My joy of eating is threatened.

Mika Oka
4 min readJun 26, 2024

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There are two groups of people in the world. One that lives to eat and the other that eats to live. I’m definitely not in the first group.

As a gourmand, I crave delicious food, and it doesn’t need to be fancy. Flavor is all that matters.

I have a stubborn stance of my food choices. If something seems disappointing or doesn’t suit my palate, I’d rather skip it and save my food quota for something else.

If I had to endure a terrible meal, I’d mentally file it away as if it never happened and treat myself to a little post-meal pick-me-up: simple but satisfying corn dog from Family Mart will do the trick.

Just like a cow with its four-chambered stomach, I also have a dedicated compartment for a treat. No matter how full I am, if there’s a nice dessert or something else, I’ll go for it.

My indulgence is my way to make up for the terrible experiences I had with food as a child.

Photo by Jose Tebar on Unsplash

As a child, I couldn’t tell the difference between feeling hungry and feeling full until much later on.

I hated mealtime. The steaming food would sit there in front of me until it turned cold. Whether it was the unappealing textures, bland flavors, or just my sheer confusion…

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Mika Oka

Sharing her unique perspective on the world as a hearing-impaired autistic person with bipolar disorder despite the challenges. emikaoka.wordpress.com/home/